Thursday, 2 January 2014

2014.. I'm not ready for you, yet.

Three months ago I turned 24. The event itself didn't scare me but the fact that this year I'll turn 25, does. I often wonder where the years have gone. Feeling old beyond my time. One moment I was doing numerous shots in a dingy bar and the next I'm saving for a mortgage. 
A quarter of a century I've had a chance to make my mark on the world and I have nothing to really show for it. I've travelled a bit, yes, but not really. I'm still living with my parents. I'm in a job I sometimes love, and always pining for the greener grass. Always coming up with elaborate plans of what I'm gonna do with my life but never putting in the foundations. Forever scared of checking my bank balance, even on payday. Constantly trying to save and always buying the latest foundation and a new dress to boot. Always envying the snippets of life that someone has so carefully decided to share. And never feeling that get up and go to do anything about anything. 
I always assumed that by 25 I would of done more with my life. Lived. I thought my skill would be finely tuned. My pay check healthier, living that champagne lifestyle, even if it was on lemonade money. That I would feel content in myself and not just looks wise. That I wouldn't have spots anymore. 
I've spent all my adult life in a relationship, and I do not regret that one bit, though I do feel it hinders you from living in a different way. I had more friends when single, mostly my fault. But being in a relationship means having someone else to worry about. Another person who's affected by your actions. No more over drinking and making new best friends who's floor you crash on and then never see again. As similar to when you are a teenager, it's a third parent to answer to. What are you doing? Who are you with? How are you getting home? Action like that evoke feelings in parents and partners. Feelings of worry, jealousy, paranoia. So it is often easier to pass off offers, then to have to answer to those feelings. I never experienced a girls holiday, and probably never will. I miss the days of (badly) dancing to Brit pop in indie bars drinkin £3 fishbowls and not having to worry about credit card bills. I feel a little lost to be honest and I don't know why, or how to change it. I think about running away heaps more than I ever did as a child. I don't really know who I am anymore. On MySpace I use to describe myself as "nothing special, but you'll never meet a girl like me" but it's not true anymore, I'm just like any other 24 year old girl. And that scares me, I no longer feel I have the X factor, which made mr so forward and up for anything growing up. I was always the yes girl. Two for two Tuesdays on bottles of wine, sure! Downing pints on stage in a music venue, why not? Booking a flight to Australia with three weeks to save, go on then! Now I can't even decide what take away to eat while watching the X factor. What changed? What went wrong? Where did I lose myself, my personality, my spunk? 

Most importantly, where do I get it back?

Friday, 11 October 2013

Birthday Wishlist

There's nothing more depressing then creating an imaginary wishlist of presents I'd like to open come October 13th. It is highly unlikely I'll receive any as I've either asked for money or nothing from the people that have inquired. 

I've wanted a new pair of chelsea boots for a while, especially a pair I can dress up or down and these seem perfect apart from the £110 price tag. I still haven't found a coat I truly love this season so I choose two that I like and think would be good for Autumn. The furry coat would be great for casual outfits and the oversized boyfriend blazer would be great for when I want to look a bit more put together thrown over jeans and a white shirt. Talking of jeans I'm in desperate need of a blue pair as my ones are now too big and I'm leaning towards these Topshop Jamie ones if I can find a 32 leg in store. I saw this dress in store but after seeing it on Lily teamed with a cropped jumper and chunky boots I cant get it out of my head. I picked out the jumper to go out with the aforementioned dress. I also really want a white handbag for full on monochrome outfits and this Zara offering fits the bill without breaking the bank. And last but not least, no blogger wishlist would be complete without a Michael Kors watch thrown in, and this rose gold beauty definitely caught my eye.

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Wednesday, 9 October 2013

Life Lately

As I've been seriously MIA lately, I thought I'd bring you up to speed in my life lately.

Let's start with the fact me and Daniel visited Marmaris for ten days back at the beginning of September. It was wonderfully relaxing and seriously warm. The first three days reached highs of 42 degrees, it then rained for a couple of hours, the humidity cleared and the next week averaged out at around 30 degrees. We spent most days lounging round the pool or down at the beach, eating great food and drink and then spent most evenings walking around the marina bar hopping or walking through the bazaar on the constant look for great bargains. It was great to just spend time with Daniel, not clouded with being around other people or to have day to day errands to run.

I arrived back from holiday and threw myself straight into a two day course called Business Counts in Buckingham, focusing on going the extra mile to make your business stand out from the rest, and the importance of team work. It was so inspiring and even though I spent both my days off on it I came away on a high and motivated for the week.

I'm almost coming to the end of my hairdressing NVQ Level 3 which I am so happy about as it was the main qualification I needed for when me and Dan decide to start our emigration process for Australia. I was also put forward by my boss to become an assessor which the training for was meant to start this week by was unfortunately cancelled due to the A12 being shut. Becoming an assessor not only strengthens my CV and my career by adding another string to my bow, it will also aid as another qualification for skilled migration by allowing me to teach and assess others who are studying their hairdressing NVQ Levels 1, 2 and 3. Next stop, management.

My biggest news of all is I've added a little cutie called Queen Bee to my family in the form of a kitten! I'm so in love it hurts. I've always been a crazy cat lady and have normally had at least three cats all my life, but last year after moving house I experienced the unfortunate luck of losing all three of my cats in the space of eight weeks, all having been hit by cars. It was very hard for me to deal with as all my other cats had lived long lives and died of natural causes such as old age. It took me, and my family a long time to get over that period and six months ago with welcomed Lady into our lives. Lady has taken to thinking she is Queenie's mum and after a rocky few days they now cannot bear not to be in a two foot radius of each other. Queenie is an expert hider and Lady wanders around the house crying until she can find her, its so so sweet and just what I needed.

This Sunday see's me turn the ripe old age of 24. I seriously do not feel it and in a way I'm kind of disappointed I haven't achieved the sort of things I had expected to by this age, but I guess that's life. Daniel is taking me off the Brighton for the weekend to celebrate so if you have any must see's, eats and do's for Brighton, please let me know!

Hows life for you lately?

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Monday, 7 October 2013

Blank Screen

I always saw blogging like riding a bike, once you get the hang of it, you never forget how to do it. Though as I sit here facing the blank screen, I don't know where to start. 

Blogging was always a hobby to me. Something I enjoyed and helped me justify my need to buy things but as time has gone on and the ever need to improve my blog layout, my writing skills, my blog photos and even figuring out where I fit into the blogosphere, I find myself spending less and less time staring at the familiar blank screen and more and more time looking at my bloglovin' feed feeling extremely overwhelmed.

I often think of blogging like a grandparent that lives half way across the world from your grandchild. The last time you saw them they were just starting to roll over, now they're running and joining the schools hurdling team. And I feel like that grandparent. When I started blogging, it felt like people were just getting to grips with blog photos and the overwhelming need to own a fancy SLR camera with no clue how to use it, and then I blinked and everyone is experts at blog photos and becoming masters in video and I feel so overwhelmed. I so wish I was the sort of person that when they see someone doing well it would inspire me to aim higher but for some reason when I see someone doing well in something I want to do, I lose the want to do it and instead want to hide under the duvet and wake up from my hibernation an expert like everyone else. I guess I'm just not willing to put the work it. Jeez, I still use the full auto mode on my camera!

I guess what I'm thinking is, in a blog world that is ever changing and everyone's competing, do I have a place when I don't even like my (third) blog name?

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Thursday, 8 August 2013

Rimmel Lash Accelerator Endless Mascara

When backstage coverage of fashion week started filtering into my blog roll the mascara on everyone's lips was 'Rimmel Lash Accelerator'. Some even claiming that up to nine coats were applied to models' lashes. Being the fickle beauty obsessed individual in constant need/want of everything that graces my bloglovin' feed, I hot footed it to Boots and picked up one of these bad boys for myself.
The fact that nine coats were needed to be applied should have been a clue to me, alas, we all learn from mistakes. Just not always right away. 
I have naturally very long eyelashes and when used into conjunction with a good mascara I am often asked if I am wearing false eyelashes - I like this. I need volume, lift and curl from a mascara to achieved my desired false lash look. This mascara seems to thickens my lashes, lifts them slightly, but provides no curl. Even, when applied after a good eyelash curling session, I see no improvement. It is as if, inside this tiny bottle of neon tackiness; something more likely to be gracing the cover of a pre-teen magazines as a freebie, there is liquid lead, that is weighing my lashes down. 
Going back to the nine coats claim that was made, I am really intrigued as to how they managed this. After failing to get a curl to last, I took a stab and applied a second coat to see if this helped the matter in hand, unfortunately to my dismay, this left me with clumpy spidery lashes. Not a good look.
Moving on to removing. I did find this smudged and flaked as the day went on, so taking this on board, I assumed it would be a dodle to remove, though yet again I hit a brick wall and spent every night for a week, battling, tugging and pulling at my eyes with micellar waters, make up removers, oils, balms, gels, you name it, I tried it. In the end I decided it was better for the condition of my eye area if I stopped. You win some. You lose some.
Unfortunately for me, this endless mascara was an endless disappointment.

Have you tried this mascara? What are your opinions? I bet it is great for people with naturally long, curly lashes that doesn't have oily skin! I'd love to know your thoughts!

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Tuesday, 6 August 2013

Cressing Vintage Fair

- Vintage Chevrolet - Hiding dog - Ice cream van - Donkey rides - Retro home wares - Chickens! - Signs for sale - Posing by a vintage truck - Purchases from the vintage fair -

A couple of Sundays back, when the sun was just starting to grace us with its presence, me and Daniel and my parents drove over to a local village that had a vintage fair on for the day. It was a giant barn with acres of fields littered with stalls selling home wares to home made cheese and everything in between. To entertain there was an amazing swing band, giant characters, donkey rides(!!) and show casing of vintage cars. I came away with a reworked vintage chair with a Cath Kitson-esque cushion, some retro style sunnies, a vintage tin to add to my collection and a massive smile of my face. 

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Monday, 22 July 2013

hint of pink

Jean jacket - Warehouse via charity shop
Joni jeans - Topshop
Striped top - H&M
White arabel boots - Topshop
Necklace - Primark
Watch - River Island
Earrings & rings - Turkish market
Hairbow - Topshop

I'm always on the look out for wardrobe staples that you can chop and change to create endless outfit combinations. That way, on days when I have a complete outfit meltdown, with half my wardrobe strewn across my bedroom, I can grab those essentials and can guarantee I'll be all right.

For me that outfit is always based around a good pair of jeans, Topshop's Joni jeans on days where I'm feeling a little 'blergh' as they suck everything in and a you can never go wrong with some form of breton. 

Once I have my basis, I build around it depending on what my plans are. For the day in question is was just a generally stroll around Colchester with Daniel. As I was going to be doing a lot of walking I added my Arabel boots for style and comfort. A denim jacket to keep out the cool breeze and a small bag for essentials that adds a much needed dose of colour to an almost monochrome outfit. Throw in some silver jewellery in the form of earrings, a sprinkling of rings and a statement necklace. Pop in a hair bow to keep my hair from flying around in the wind and I was good to go..

...Once I'd cleaned up my bedroom, that is.

What is the basis for your go to outfit?

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Thursday, 11 July 2013

Honey, I'm home

So it seems I left my blog unattended for a rather long time. Though I know I don't need one, there isn't a excuse in sight as to why. Maybe lack of motivation is the cause. I've been lacking motivation in a lot of areas of my life lately. Don't get me wrong, I love my life, I just feel I spend my days at the moment counting down the hours until I can get back into bed. I guess maybe its down to the fact that my life is not where I thought it would be as I start to approach 24. 
I miss the days of dancing all night to cheesy music, covered in cider and sweat in a grubby bar some where. I miss the days of travelling, waking up and not knowing where the day was going to take me. I wished I had travelled more and for longer. I feel like I'm preparing for life like I'm 34 rather than 24. I feel I need excitement. I feel I need adventure. I feel I need something to knock me for six, make me spin and and not know when I will stop.

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Wednesday, 5 June 2013

Great Gatsby Glamour

A couple of Mondays ago I jumped on the Piccadilly line and headed to the Sergio Giannasso salon for a night of glamour to pay homage to the 1920s which has recently become popular due to the recent release of The Great Gatsby at the cinema.

I was greeted on arrival with a glass of Presecco and Sergio's famous home made tiramisu. A recipe handed down to him by his Grandma and totally top secret! After a quick catch up with some fellow bloggers, I was sat in the chair and put in the very capable hands of Adam.

Since Adam has been in the hairdressing industry, he has come on leaps and bounds in such a small amount of time. Having trained with Charles Worthington, Percy & Reed and working at Sergio's for just over a year. He has also worked at LFW, worked on stage with hair up maestro Patrick Cameron at Salon International and some of his own hair collections take pride of place of Sergio's salon walls. Along with all the above under his belt, he also manages to make time to contribute to MANSNAPS.

Adam gave me a quick summary of traditional 20's hair including low side partings, short fringes, pin curls, finger waves, faux bobs and zero volume. He had recently had the pleasure of meeting the hair stylist from The Great Gatsby which added to his excitement of being let loose of my bleached mop.

He started by creating a low side parting and hairspraying my full fringe into a short side fringe. On the right side, he pin curled all my hair flat to my head. While they were setting, on the left side he used the Cloud 9 wand to create uniform waves. 

Adam explained the best way to not only get a good wave but a way of creating a finger waved look. He started by taking a section of hair the same width and thickness as the wand. Placing the wand horizontally to the head, starting with the hair underneath the wand he begins wrapping it around the wand. His biggest tip was the ensure that every time you wrap the hair around the wand, is that you thumb returns to the same position it started it. By doing this you will create a more uniform wave rather than a ringlet effect usually associated with wands.

Once the left side was all waved, he sprayed it with hairspray and allowed it to cool and set. He then pinned up the back into a faux bob for a more authentic 20's hairstyle. He finished by brushing out the waves, securing them behind the ear with a few kirby grips, lashings of hairspray and a feather head band for the flapper girl look.

I highly recommend Adam and the rest of the team at Sergio Giannasso, even if its just to taste the tiramisu!

What did you think of my 20's hairstyle? Will you be giving it a try? I'd love to know!

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Thursday, 9 May 2013

Home Made Bath Salts

Ever since I read an article telling me that Victoria Beckham bathed in epsom salts I've been hooked on doing the same. There are several websites dedicated to telling you the benefits of bathing in epsom salts and they even have their own Wikipedia page! The main benefits that appeal to me is the fact they are known for their detoxifying properties and the fact they also relieve tired and aching muscles which is great after a 12 hour day standing on my feet! Bath salts are very popular at the moment and like most things that become popular they come with a hefty price tag and half the benefits so I decided to make my own for less than large Starbucks.

What you will need:

  • Epsom salts approx. 500g - I got mine from Boots for about £3.
  • Essential oil - I choose Rose as I'm so in love with the scent at the moment.
  • A Kilner Jar - I picked mine up from Wilkinsons for around £2.

Pour all your salts into the jar. 
Add around 10 drops of essential per cup of salts.
Shut your jar and shake vigorously. 
Smell your salts. If you want a more over powering smell add more oil.
Mix a cup or two into the bath as you get in and soak for at least 15 minutes to reap the full benefits. So simple!

Will you be making your own bath salts? What are your favourite home made products? I'd love to know!

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